Betsy: Recent scientific research with brain studies and imaging has shown that we can’t actually multitask by using our mind. The mind is not organized that way. While using the mind, we can only focus on one thing at a time. I found this quote from the following article:

http://www.thenewatlantis.com/publications/the-myth-of-multitasking

“In one of the many letters he wrote to his son in the 1740s, Lord Chesterfield offered the following advice: “There is time enough for everything in the course of the day, if you do but one thing at once, but there is not time enough in the year, if you will do two things at a time.” To Chesterfield, singular focus was not merely a practical way to structure one’s time; it was a mark of intelligence. “This steady and undissipated attention to one object, is a sure mark of a superior genius; as hurry, bustle, and agitation, are the never-failing symptoms of a weak and frivolous mind.””

When we are busy using our mind, all of our attention is focused on thinking. While using the mind, we cannot choose to ignore our mind, that is only an ‘idea’, another thought in the train of thoughts we are busy thinking about. “Clarity is the key to quiet the mind.” Lord Chesterfield expressed it well as ‘singular focus’. So what we focus on we do well. What we focus on grows. To quiet the mind, we must practice focusing on not using the mind. This is the practice of meditation, of which there are many types. We should try various tools until we find one that suits us. The most effective type of meditation is the simplest that requires no use of mind, such as observing your breathing which happens by itself. If visualization, contemplation or mantra repetition is used the entire time, the mind must necessarily be engaged. This will still give a result to reduce stress and raise our vibration for healing, but deep states of quiet mind of meditative state cannot be achieved as long as the mind is engaged. A deep state of fully quiet mind is needed to take further steps for self-realization.

Past life’s is something I never believed until I went back in my memory and remembered them. It is not something we can convince other people is truth. When we remember our past deaths and remember our past life’s, then there is no doubt that we are eternal and have been here in ‘Earth school’ before. We are learning about our true self through physical object experiences on earth for the reason to awaken us to our true nature, which is non-physical and unformed. Yes, thoughts are triggered as reactions to events, which come from our long history and most of our thoughts come from recent memories of our current lifetime. If we have not yet spiritually awakened and met ‘The Creator’, then ‘this life’ is all we know. When deeper states of quiet mind are achieved, then the memory banks to past lives open.

Single-pointed consistent practice is the key. What we focus on grows. If we focus on quiet mind activity by doing our meditation regularly, twice per day without fail, then we get good at quieting our mind. Clarity expands when the mind is quiet! Every second of quiet mind counts. When mind is quiet, higher-self IS which is clarity. When mind is active, ego IS, which is blindness. The two states are mutually exclusive and do not exist at the same time. It is one or the other. It comes down to a decision about what to focus on and what we want to be good at. Lord Chesterfield failed to mention that the best object to focus on is our SOURCE of intelligence and creativity, our higher-self itself. Our higher-self has access to the intelligence of the universal mind and is the source of everything. Focusing on that by excluding the mind-clutter by practicing meditation daily will truly develop our genius and clarity.
From *here*, everything is possible and many doors open.

Namaste’
Betsy

There is property for sale at a price well below market value in nature that would serve beautifully for retreats with potential for community life. The property is in the USA, latitude 44, upper mid-west (4 seasons), town population about 3,000; all buildings are on riverfront, with approximately 9 acres total and 47 acres wooded nature preserve right next to it. It is not in a flood plain. There are 4 identical buildings, split into narrow lots, with building high on land, most of lot wooded running down to river. There is a pond too. Each building is 2 story, 3,200 sqft, 9 bedrooms, 4 full bath, 2 ½ baths, rec room, great room, kitchen and utility room. They are architecturally interesting with angles and a star shape when seen from above. Currently 3 of the 4 units are for sale, and have been vacant for 10 years with no utilities turned on. They will likely need plumbing repairs, paint, and updating but are not that old (built in 1973) and from the pictures look structurally sound. (I have a qualified person that can inspect the buildings at a moments notice.) I feel the reason they stay vacant so long is the town zoned them commercial so the tax is $17,000 per year per building! The town is considering rezoning and changing them back to residential rate at end of October, at which time these properties will more than likely be purchased quickly with the tax burden gone, so acting quickly on this opportunity is essential!

I think it best to keep commercial zoning, as retreat & community use is not standard residential use. Then the only way to afford these buildings is to have it owned by a non-profit organization, of which the type of non-profit must be a School (teaching) or a Church (spiritual), to avoid paying property tax. There is the possibly the owners of this property may give them away in order to get a 501©3 deduction or tax write-off, just to avoid paying the exorbitant taxes for another year. That is what my intuition is telling me, and what I want to try that NOW. If the donation idea doesn’t fly, the three properties can be purchased well below market value for about $75K! (less closing costs). There is also 9 acres across the road I think is for sale, non-wooded, non-developed, split into lots, for $50K, which could be used to build a meeting center or resident cottages or make a large garden. I am not sure if the 4th building is for sale, but if it is, then all property (4 buildings & 18 acres) could be had for around $150K!

What I want is residency in one of the buildings and to occasionally run my own small retreats, and space to finish the books I’m writing and a physical job that gives me exercise! My background is I have made spiritual awakening my full time job, over the last 15 years, and have meditated each day and have done alternative healing therapies of all kinds. I want to work with people of similar interest that offer meditation, nature & healing retreats. I can help you make your new retreat center a reality, as I have many skills that can get this place up and running. I can stay there year round as steward, create & maintain a website, organize & help with retreats, manage & hire repair crews, do fund-raising, do record keeping, keep the place mowed, maintained & plowed in winter. Skills: high energy, intuitive, fast learner, computer programmer, organic gardening, landscape design, lead nature walks, meditation initiation, reiki healing, acupressure, writing, photography, lived in community 5 years full time, organization skills, handy-woman skills: tiling, drywall, rough carpentry, power tools, painting, repairs of all kinds.

Please contact me if you are interested to find out more. Do not delay, time is of the essence!
Namaste’
Betsy

Healing will happen anytime one gains energy above one’s normal daily energy level. Healing happens when we sleep at night, because the personality is sleeping. Healing happens when we take vitamins, minerals or supplements that are lacking in our diet, as then our whole system operates more efficiently. Healing happens when we take oxygen or ozone therapies, because it helps to boost our immune system, and kill off bacteria and viruses that use energy of our system to fight them off. Healing happens when we meditate, because then we are releasing energy used by activation of personality aspect of self. Healing happens when we use energy therapies, as this excites our vibrational level, and helps us to settle the activated personality. Healing happens when we exercise, as this enervates the whole muscular system, resulting in greater efficiency of nervous energy moving in the body. There are many more things that can be listed that cause us to heal, but what is common about every one of them is it ‘increases our energy’, above our normal operating levels. When there is more energy we heal, it can’t be said simpler.

Now there is another category of energy drain that needs its own section, and this has to do with our bad habits. Every one of us has bad habits, lifetime habits, that suck the most energy, and there is a big reason why we won’t let go of them. We keep the habit, because it makes us feel dense, it makes us feel alive as personality, in a physical world. The habit itself keeps us grounded in earthly material, as a solid being, and that is also why it takes so much energy away from us. The kind of habit we hold most dear, and is the last one we would ever consider giving up, is that which is sucking the most energy. It will not be hard to find this habit if you take an honest look, and you may have more than one of them. If we look deeply into this habit, we will likely discover it roots are related to a very early childhood experience. Keeping the habit feels to be so much a part of who we are that we rarely consider letting it go. To give up this habit will be very difficult, not because of the nature of the habit itself, but because of the value we are getting out of it. The value we get is ‘feeling dense’ in the physical world as our physical existence itself.

When we try to give up this habit, it will feel like a real torture, beyond what others would feel giving up the same habit. As soon as we stop it, we start to get this feeling of flying, like we are losing our grip with the physical world and we feel weightless. This is actually the side-affect of a huge energy being returned to us, and it is what we are afraid of, we simply don’t like that feeling of our body suddenly gaining all this energy and feeling as light as a feather. We so will want to stomp this funky energy feeling down, and we know instinctually how to do it, by simply returning to do the old habit.

To increase one’s healing capacity and realize higher levels of momentary awareness, you need to look all the things one is doing habitually and try to make an accurate assessment of how much energy each is taking from you to maintain the habit. It is also helpful to observe while doing each habit, how your state of mind is while doing it. Does mind-voice tend to activate more during certain habits and activities than others? If so, then this will be a hint that this habit is one of the big energy drains, and you are doing it to get the entertainment value of being as activated personality aspect of self. You are doing it as habit to feel dense and materialistic in the world of forms. To get the speediest result of accelerated healing, go for the biggest energy drain item first, go for the hardest thing first, that thing which you tend to never let go of.

Of course as one stops old habits which are draining your energy, then there will be a huge space opened in which to do new things. Choose wisely among all the things possible for new things you can do in place of the old, which will give you back more energy than they take away. Try to establish new habits from pursuits which have roots in self-expression, creativity, meditation, exercise, being in nature, healing protocols and healthier diets, to name a few.

Betsy
September 2, 2011

Tanka: Open Up Your Heart

Open up your heart
the symphony is playing
listen to the notes
Sinking into the music
self forgotten – happiness!

Betsy
May 12, 2000

 Answer: We always have the same amount of energy in the body, no matter where we are at in our spiritual journey. How the energy is distributed and how it is being used delineates different forms of spiritual evolution. In most people the energy is being held in fixed repeated forms, which has the most to do with animation of the fake one, which I also refer to as personality. This energy form of personality is being held in place predominately by the individuals use of mind and then pretending or emoting according to the story they are internally telling themselves. Spiritual evolution happens when one lets go of using the mind, for any moment, of which change in body and mind happens by the higher self. The mind can’t be changed if it is being used. The basics of a spiritual change that happens are an erasure of a worn path or habit that was mentally being held, in short the mind is changed. This change is then echoed on down in the body and the nervous system essentially changes to reflect the new mind pattern. As spiritual evolution goes on, more and more habitual paths are erased, and energy that was being held in form is collected and redistributed to make a different mind and nervous system. As collected energy all over the body is released, it collects along the spine ‘to center’ making a new spinal column, which also reflects the new mind that is forming.

 This metamorphosis is away from the old human form, which used self-reflection capability of mind to become aware of one’s own true nature. This capability itself is what distinguishes humans from all other creatures, this advanced ability to self-reflect and to recognize oneself. This is an intermediate form, before full awareness is possible in the body. This ability itself, eventually becomes troublesome as one becomes trapped by one’s own unique capability, one becomes trapped in the mind-emoting world, and is like caught in a dream. The worse the side-affects of this become: we get sick, get mentally ill, and have such turmoil, the more ready we are to let go of this old habit and get quiet. That’s when awakening and metamorphosis to new form starts…

The new human form does not need this capability in mind to talk to oneself, or internally use mind to see itself. This capability has served it’s purpose once one realizes one’s true nature. That is the beginning of the end of the old form and the start of making the new form. All this can be seen as a growing process, an evolution, a kundalini awakening, which has many steps along the way, which are evidenced by symptoms and insights, in regards to where one is at in the process. The new human mind and body is no longer organized into two halves, which is present today as left and right brain and left and right body. The new human mind and body will be one brain, one body, with eventual erase of internal talking, or self-reflection capability as it is done now. As this process continues in a person in an evolution process, the energy around the spine becomes stronger, as the brain also becomes stronger. The rebuilding of the spine and brain is the main physiological thing that is happening, and as one progresses the energy vibration around this area (brain + spine = shape of tadpole or sperm), goes through various changes. These are all due to changes in the nervous system, and can be felt by person it is happening to and seen by those with clairvoyant capabilities in others. The energy is collecting from held forms into free flowing forms and keeps getting stronger as vibration levels in body continue to grow and become more efficient. The spine gets more flexible and elastic, and control of the whole body more efficient. The energy expansion in the nervous system is like an infinitely expanding fractal pattern, it keeps getting finer and finer. Now you talk about seeing a widening spinal column, this is still the phase of right and left body energies coming together towards the spine. As these energies of right and left start to merge, it creates that twisting coil or vortex. As the energies on right and left body become even, then there is not so much turbulence, and the vortex disappears. In a fully completed transition, you would not see any chakra points, no right and left energies, and nothing at all in the spine. The entire body will be filled with light, evenly, smoothing, and the person experiencing such a state would not feel energy turning in any particular place, more like a shimmering reactive fluid state, that just reacts to whatever it encounters and then lets it go.

The snake is seen because of a double helix pattern of energy vibration wrapping around the body, the right and left body energies merging. Golden color is seen because as the process continues the vibration level is rising, and yellow is high vibration, of course white is the highest. The energy never really ‘returns to it’s abode’, it is more like passes through the body. Body activation pattern is legs, arms, hips, pelvic bowl, then activation of spinal energy, which travels to brain. This being the highest energy, ti makes a change in the brain, then energy comes back down with the ‘new program’ and changes are made in body to reflect change in brain. The amount of time it takes for energy to move from feet to skull, gets shorter between each pass over time. In one highly advanced in this process there is no longer any time that is humanly detectable between feet to brain passes, it is happening all the time. In one first starting this transformation it can take months.

Question: “What is the best way to use such a  potent energy? A rebuilding process could be seen too……….. Please shed some light on this !”

 Answer: The best way to use such a potent energy is to allow the process in oneself to continue, which of course in one undergoing such a process, they already know that and know how to let it happen. Completion to the next human form is the most important for all individuals to complete, it is the ultimate goal of all humans. When one completes it, then they do it for everyone, as we are in truth all one. So changing oneself in an essential way like this, you change everyone when you do it, moving all closer to the next stage of our human evolution to the one of light body.  

Betsy

May 27, 2011

The main reason we don’t self-heal and/or feel good is because we don’t have enough free energy in our system, to do the healing and/or lift our spirit. It is a very basic fact that our habit of ‘holding of energy’ in fixed forms is what is bringing us down. There is plenty of energy in our body to lift us up but it is not available to us because we are keeping it locked into a fixed shape, which happens through our habitual and mostly unconscious ways of responding to life. We all have many different habits and beliefs, which are keeping our energy low. An important and imperative part of the self-healing and spiritual ascension process, is determining what those habitual energy drains are, and addressing each one by one, as one is ready to make a change in them.

Healing and spiritual ascension always occurs when one gains energy. There are many different ways to gain energy such as exercise, eating healthier, taking supplements or minerals, doing daily meditation, volunteering, artistic self-expression, energy healing techniques, getting a massage, fasting, organ cleanses, taking a bath, therapy, quitting smoking or drinking, writing, playing music, dancing, etc. But the largest amount of energy locked into a fixed shape, which has to do with ‘old habit’ is that being consumed by the animation of the structure of personality itself. It takes a lot of energy to run the machine of personality, and this if freed up could accelerate one’s spiritual growth and healing process.

This is why it is a good idea to use the enneagram tool, to find out what is your personality type. When you are armed with the information about your personality type, then you become aware of your habitual reaction pattern, and can notice when you are giving too much energy and attention to animating this ‘big energy drain’. When you have that information, then you can start to redirect energy away from strong animation of the personality, thereby raising your spirit and enhancing your healing on all levels.

Most people starting out on a healing and spiritual journey have little idea of the concept of personality even being activated. For the majority of people the antics of personality activation is invisible. To the beginner, there is no distance from the personality to be able to observe the personality in action. It seems like you are the personality itself, and there is no possibility to have control over it. For the advanced, when you are well into a healing and spiritual journey, eventually you will get to the point where your free energy is much higher. When you are not aware of your old habit to divert your attention and energy into activation of the personality, the personality activation when it happens will be much stronger than before and you will start to feel the heavy effect. This is happening now because you simply have much more free energy now, and you can now manifest a much stronger personality than before. It is imperative at this point, to dive into the inner workings of your animation of personality, and to get a handle on it, to start learning how to divert energy away from this old habit. Imperative, that is, if you want to feel better… It is an interesting state to be in, the misery of personality activation, gives you motivation to go to the next level, and uncover the more subtle deeper layers.

I feel the enneagram is a good complement tool for everybody on a healing and ascension path to use. Animation of our personality has to do with our belief about ourselves and how we view ourselves. This is tricky thing for us to uncover and discover about ourselves, because we currently feel we are as one with it. A tool like the enneagram helps us to identify our personality type, of which there are 9 basic forms. These 9 forms are the basic ways alive systems can respond and react to encountered happenings as a personal reaction, so they have a basis in natural systems. When we were very young, we all adopted a favorite way to respond to happenings, and so we all have a kind of hidden program, which is the root of our personality activation pattern. There are 3 basic ways we can respond ‘energetically’ to any happening: we can flee, fight or adapt. The other aspect is we each have a way to respond positively and negatively to any situation, our up side and our down side program, which is like two favorite emotions we use. We use the up side program when we are going into new territory, trying to do something new and different as our primary energy (charge ahead). We use the down side program when we feel we have failed (retreat), or as our secondary energy. When you take these 3 basic ways, and apply the upside/downside programming, then you have the 9 basic forms: flee/flee, flee/fight, flee/adapt, fight/fight, fight/flee, fight/adapt, adapt/adapt, adapt/flee and adapt/fight.

Adapt (chameleons) 2, 3, 4 : #2 adapt/fight, #3 adapt/adapt, #4 adapt/flee
Flee (escaping) 5, 6, 7: #5 flee/adapt, #6 flee/flee, #7 flee/fight
Fight (confronting) 8, 9, 1: #8 fight/flee, #9 fight/fight, #1 fight/adapt

The enneagram as a tool can pinpoint which personality type we are, arming us with self-knowledge of how we use emotional energy, and thereby giving us the ability to detect when personality animates. This is key information to know. The personality takes shape over the first 26 years of life. The core of the personality, the way we use emotional energy, was formed in the very early years before we had cognitive abilities. Because of this fact, the animation of personality is mostly invisible to us. This habitual way of responding to energy as reaction has been with us for so long, it just feels like it is us, and it feels like it’s hard-wired and unchangeable. But this is not the truth. Before we didn’t know about it, and used our energy this way unconsciously. With self-knowledge we have consciousness about it and with attention can change our old energy use pattern. This is the key. If we are not aware of our personality type and this activation process that’s currently invisible to us, then we will continue to feel an energy drain and eventually it will make us sick. By gaining this self-knowledge, then we are now aware of what is taking the energy by noticing when it happens, and then have the ability to make a decision to divert our attention and not use our energy any more in this old habit. Our spirit will rise up each time we are successful to divert our energy, giving us a new kind of confirmation to continue on in this way. Each time we are successful at this our spirit will grow stronger, and we will heal more.

To get started, there is a free online test you can do where the most important thing is to
answer the questions truthfully. This is not about trying to be somebody else, or that anyone is going to judge you, even yourself! You don’t have to share your result with anybody. Bare and honest truth will give you the most accurate picture of yourself, and this is what you want and NEED to be able to see your animated aspect clearly, to gain the self-knowledge you need, so you can clearly SEE when you are using your energy in that old way.

EclecticEnergies

There is a book on enneagram that I used in my study and found very beneficial. At the time it was available in tape format, I guess these days it’s on CD. It is by Helen Palmer, you can look into her website at the following link. I was quite impressed with her in-depth knowledge and intuitive take of the enneagram. She also gives excellent information on how to change your energy use patterns to actually evolve your personality type to the next higher type for you. There is a lot of free information on the site about the different types.

Enneagram

I think this is an excellent meditation question, and I thank you for it. I want to congratulate you for getting such a good result being new to the practice of meditation. Believe me, this is a good result to come this far, for many it would take much longer to come up with such a question.

You are not doing anything wrong. It is a belief you are holding about what is successful meditation that you as ‘ego mind’ is using to judge your capability. Most likely you believe that success would be the ability to be able to shut the mind down indefinitely and completely. You believe that to awaken the mind will go completely blank, so failure in this case means you can’t awaken. This is a normal belief, because many well-meaning spiritual people in the past have spread the false-hood that when you awaken the mind goes completely quiet and then full awakening happens. They talk about it like it’s a one-time spontaneous happening, and you are either awake or not awake. It simply doesn’t happen like this.

Awakening is a slow and gradual biological process, where the biological change happens in the moments you are able to be quiet in mind and follow your breathing. Every second of quiet mind counts, because during that short interval your mind and body is being changed, it’s like a healing process.

You have your essential life force energy, and there are various ways to focus that energy. The old way (which you are moving away from, because you are meditating) is to use most of one’s attention to chatter away in the mind. This creates certain electrical circuit wiring and reactions paths formed in body, brain and muscles, which are due to repeated habitual use of mind. When you start to set your attention away from the old habit of chatter, by observing your breathing, then you are taking energy away from that old circuit. While you are successful at this, because you have ‘freed energy you were using to think’, your internal healer now uses this ‘energy’ as fuel to go to work to change the circuitry in your brain. That’s one way to say it. The other way to say it is: when ego mind goes to sleep (mind gets quiet), then higher self wakes up, and is present.

Now as you continue to practice meditation, these seconds will slowly start to add up, as your mind is being changed every time you are successful to be quiet. Believe me also, that one second of success and your energy inside can zoom at light speed to make changes, so every second is very valuable. As you get these seconds in, a kind of miracle is happening yet not detectable to you in your mind. YOU are growing stronger as aware presence and ego-self is getting weaker. As this process continues, you will slowly gain more control over being able to quiet down the mind, and emotional states too. Your overall vibration in body is speeding up, as awareness in body grows, and ego diminishes, dues to more robust nervous system circuitry. When certain vibration levels are reached, then it can trigger deeper insights, and spontaneous reactions like kriyas. As you progress, the amount of time you can spend in quiet mind will increase; to eventually your whole hour in meditation will be quiet mind. The hour will fly by in what seems a few minutes. Yet, this should not be a goal to try and reach. Just know that every second counts, and keep working persistently to do this simple thing:

1. Recognize you were thinking, don’t think about what you were thinking, just drop it.
2. Reset attention back to meditation focal point, yours is observing the breathing.
3. Repeat 1 & 2 over and over and over for the hour, that’s all you need to do.

It is common to notice that you can not sustain the following of the breath very long, before the mind is triggered and the old chatter mode starts up. This is because your mind simply has a lot left in it to be deprogrammed. What is positive here is YOU CAN NOTICE what is going on. That is a huge step! It means you are already changing, you are becoming stronger, to be able to observe the two different states of chatter and non-chatter. This is essential to take further steps. Once you can see the two different states, you have clarity of sight of inside mechanism of thinking, and thus are able to switch out of thinking when you notice it. It can take a long time for many to really see the thinking so clear like you do, this is because thinking has a high frequency and one’s own bodily vibration must has risen sufficiently high enough to be able to detect the higher vibration thought. For most people this ‘story talk’ is invisible.

Keep doing what you’re doing, you’re not failing, you are doing great and don’t listen to that ‘failure’ voice, that is ego arising…. when you hear that ‘story’, know it is mind arisen, and just make decision to not listen and reset focus to following one’s breathing, getting in one’s time, and being patient.

When you lie down at night to go to bed, then there happens a shift when the mind shuts down and higher self takes over. This is exactly the moment when you fall asleep, and you have no memory of it, nor can you observe the exact time the shift happens. What happens is when you lie down, your system goes into rest phase, and your energy and vibration level in body starts to climb. When it gets high enough then higher self simply takes over and in a wink the mind is shut down. Ego aspect goes to rest and higher self goes to work, repairing your body and making adjustments in your system due to the day’s activities. In the morning, when you wake up, then it’s just the opposite, higher self aspect goes to background and ego comes to foreground, you will notice the chattering starts as soon as you awaken.

There are really not two of you, in regards to higher-self and lower-self (ego), there is just one of you. What there is are different ways to focus your intention and use your essential energy, that which is your true self (energy). The normal non-awakened human way (where all seekers start out) is to use one’s energy in the mind in reflection mode, with constant mind chatter, interpretation, story telling, like being a dream the whole day long. The mind never shuts up. Of course this is what is making one blind, because one can’t really see beyond what one is telling oneself is truth through the beliefs and interpretation of the fake talking self.

Now the other way we can use our energy is to withdraw it from mind-chatter, this is essentially the path of awakening through practice of meditation skills. When we withdraw our energy away from mind-chatter mode, we are suddenly aware and alert and can see clearly (unlike at night when we sleep), we are consciously observing what is happening. When energy is withdrawn from mind-chatter, then our energy rises, that rising energy is the same as the awareness aspect of self. Healing happens as well, just like when we go to sleep at night, to change us biologically to transform us slowly into new awakened body, with new abilities to use mind and body, every time we withdraw energy away from using our mind in constant chatter.

To summarize what is most important:
The mind can’t be changed if we are constantly using it!
The Mind changes when we don’t use it.

Lastly, I would like you to ask yourself something and that is: “Who do you think is observing what is happening in your meditation”?

Betsy
April 27, 2011

Now I can’t write this, without telling you the truth, that I rarely feel child-like, not when I consider the majority of my waking hours. I am way too serious, I take life too serious, and there is always too much I feel I need to do, that I tend to put my life on hold, waiting for another day in the future when I’m going to have more fun. It is sad, but I see it’s what I’ve accepted as my truth. Seeing my reality I don’t want to be this way, and now endeavor to take life less seriously.

I like this question because it brings into focus for me something I need to look at. It makes me remember how much more fun life is when you are being like a child. It reminds me of the underlying message Osho always stated, that being awake is not for the serious man, but rather when present or awake one is behaving like a child, yet not behaving childishly. One is just full of delight, and wonder, inquisitive and ready to partake and experience whatever presents in the moment.

Tonight instead of doing what I usually do, on a whim, I went outside and cleaned out the algae of the pool, i enjoyed getting entirely dirty and wet and spent some time playing in the water, splashing it around. I have no idea if this was effective work or not, but I enjoyed it! Normally this would be something I would consider as ‘a job’, but tonight it was so much fun. And now here I am writing what I feel, where the serious me should rather be doing the work I already put off earlier.

Oh well, it was fun. Tomorrow is another day, and I hope to have more fun tomorrow too. I don’t want to put off having fun anymore; it’s just not worth it!

Thanks for asking such a good question.
Betsy

Yes.
It’s a good question. This is something humans don’t want to know, that the majority of their actions are destructive and harmful, contaminating the earth. As I see it the majority of humans are still trapped in turning around in their mind chatter (ego) and the essence of ego-chatter is defensive, fighting and consuming. Blindness in humans is due to being trapped in their mind-chatter, they associate their identity or true self as being the ‘me’ voice that goes on non-stop. The essence of the problem is being attached to all that is physical or that which can be seen. They think they see themselves, but what they see is only the mind-voice; they can’t see their true nature. They think they see the world outside, but what they see is what they tell themselves in their mind that ‘they saw’. Look at any happening, and ask observers what happened and you will get lots of stories, few if any will hold the truth of what actually happened. Okay, this is because they can’t really see, they rather interpret. Because one is busy in mind-chatter, then one also can’t observe the outside world in a pure way and see what is happening when it happens. All is past tense, a second too late, revolving around in mind-chatter to see real-time happenings.

Okay, because humans are attached to what can be seen, which is in essence materialistic, then this is where their values system lies at heart. Egos want more and more and are never satisfied; this is because the ego revolves around a story of self that the person makes up. This story will never match reality, and so one has to continually reinvent oneself, whenever one fails to reach one’s desires. As ego energy gets bigger, which happens to all humans over time, then the ego needs even more to satisfy it hungry demands. And thus starts the destruction on a larger scale, as egos become huge takers of everything, and the more people doing it, the larger destruction happens around us. You see it everywhere today.

The other way ego’s stay intact which is very important to keep the false dream alive, is to get validation from other humans for one’s ego story (what one believes one is). This validation takes thousands of forms: wealth, fame, prestige, career, great mother, being a bad ass, being spiritual, intelligence, being ugly, etc. This validation game all egos play with each other is a big reason why there is so much contamination. This is because to get it, one has to take something from another, either physically or by proving they are better. This is the main reason there are wars, because egos can’t see eye to eye, egos never want to give up anything, egos are takers. Nobody in this game sees the whole and the reality of what is going on around and the damage, violence, etc, it causes to play the ego game.

To see it CLEAR, is the wake up call, and the beginning of the dissolving of the ego and the transition to higher awareness. But it’s all part of nature, it is totally natural and to be expected. As ego’s get larger energy which most have today, then the destruction gets so bad to self and surroundings, that it eventually causes physical problems and destruction, forcing the ego’s to blow-up or fall apart. This is like a volcano building up pressure inside (higher spiritual energy), and as it does the container (the mountain) gets weakened, the static form (the ego), starts to develop cracks. When the cracks start happening, then one starts to feel ‘ill’, then one has a choice, to either let go of what one is holding onto (the story), or to let go of it (get quiet).

Betsy
April 18, 2011